i want chewy chocolate brownie in the midst of the night under my block.
i want longer hair but i like it short.
i want it brown coz its more manageable than black hair.
but brown? i like it dark. dark brown like chocalate brownie. chocalate looks better than chocolate.
i want to wear specs everyday but i look bad. contact lenses are sucha burden.
i want to gain weight but i dont want to be fat but there's nothing wrong with having more meat.
i want to work and get fucking rich. and eversince when do i use the word fuck.
i want to buy the holga cam but i have not got it ordered yet.
i want to take pictures with the camera and develop it and keep it and save it and hug it till i die.
i want to look good in every photo but that defeats the purpose of memories.
because i dont have much memory of photos with faces of people smiling and posed.unless they are models.
i dont want to shop for new clothes because i have enough right now. i'll shop in 2 weeks time maybe.
i want to go au naturel but it makes me feel so small amongst everyone.
i wish i was smaller so i could hide from everyone.
i want to get the porcelain pendant but i have to find a way to wear it long so i wont cover the necklace im wearing everyday.
i want to go drink teh tarik at kampung glam cafe and wait for my mom to finish work. even though there's nothing extra nice about the food there.
i want to work at a different place for a new environment but its hard to find a retail job with flexible hours.
i want the camp like everyone else, to be a success.
i want the freshies to come ask me every weds if there's going to be training for them because they are looking forward to it.
i need a response from people when i speak.
i want to cut my hair but i want it long but i like it short.
i want to watch heroes but i dont have scv
i wear shrek ears at home so i'll be like princess fiona. no, more like my hairbands go missing all the time but reappear when i dont need it.
i want to make more costume jewellery because i dont want to be working in the science field. but i love working in the labs and dealing with bacterias.
i want to be a rachel because everyone loves rachel. but im a sandy.
i want to get that turquoise hoodie.
i want to wear my blue KEDS shoe everyday to school but i dont know why i always end up wearing my loafers.KEDS shoes are so comfy.
i want to get new shorts because mine's missing.
i want to go get myself good books to read.
and i want to learn how to sew so i'll sew my own pretty dresses for friday nights.
and i really want to learn how to sew, i'll make pretty blouses matched with pretty vests and lovely belts and rainbows and colours and candies and lollipops and everything sweet.

and can you even read what im writing.
this is what happens during a 6 hr break.